I reached a point where what the present (and soon-to-be-former) job demanded and what I have to give it are rapidly diverging. I can't meet my bosses' and co-workers' expectations. The demands the job that I could not meet got so significant that I found myself arriving at work daily expecting to get fired. Or scolded. Which royally sucks.
Maybe others can and do deal with the daily potential for firing, but I can't. I live to please other people. Knowing that I was causing grief for others led me to resign. Nuff said about that.
What now? I have been working or enrolled in various schools more or less full-time since I was 16. I want a break. (Lisa and I are lucky enough to have saved a bit that will allow me to be unemployed for a month or so, economy willing. During this time I plan to do some soul-searching. And blogging. I feel grateful for the opportunity.
The questions for me now are:
What do I most need to be doing? What is the best work that I can be doing in the here and now?
Being in the throes of a job (featuring a lingering, persistent dread of imminent firing) did not create the conditions for a calm reassessment of my purpose. Not being constantly employed will help.
Since I am currently thinking about what I really need to be doing I am on the lookout for interesting jobs that other people have. Below are some pictures of guys at work re-roofing the very steep roof of downtown Columbia's Methodist Church. I don't know that I want or don't want their jobs, but what they do certainly is photogenic.
See you in the streets,
|They'll need a crane to get supplies to the roof.|
|This roofer is about five stories up thar.|
|Proper footwear is more important for some jobs than others.|
|How do you know if you are doing the right work for you?|
|Patron saint of roofers, St. Vincent of Saragossa, pray for us.|